Atomizer - As The Blackening Waves Of Fear Within Me Rise lyrics

The blackening waves of fear within me rise I opted for suicide Said farewell now to my dreams And what I thought this life should be Pinning a note to my chest I thought it best for all to see I clutch it now, thinking Was that the sum of what I had to say? Ah what the hell, they're sure to sanitize it anyway The wooden beam seemed the right idea, initially I'll bet that fixture could have set me free For it's at this point I must concede That my current mode of action Is what you may call ill-conceived At best Despite my decade long engagement To opt for this mortal coil Or eternal rest I'm doomed at best The blackening waves of fear within me rise It could have been a rope, a belt A tie a cable, a cord a sheet Or whatever is available To deliver relief But the rope really spoke to you The floor just inches from my feet That chair I stepped off just out of reach A fine time this is indeed To decide this may not actually be The right thing for me