Asyere - Note to Self lyrics

[Intro] Cracked screens Cracked dreams Blurred visions [Verse 1] Lately I've been smiling less My heart beat, it's beating out of my chest Probably that bump I did, this the first time I told you I did a line I know that won't make you smile I know that won't make you proud but I'm sorry Momma Look I'm just tryna tell my story Momma, I just wanna bring you honor But lately I'm filled up with pain This past year, it ain't been the same But I guess we're one in the same ‘Cause lately I'm in this place: "give me my space Stay out of my f**ing way, stay out of my f**ing face" woah This road's different from what I chose, but these are my cards I suppose It's so different from what I called home We're so distant, can't pick up the phone? “No!” This is that stuff that nobody knows Usually everybody nose, steady sniffing, all in my business These typical Christians, who claiming they on a mission But all I hear is the hisses, okay I'm kidding But every lie has some truth in it, and all my lines they have truth in it To tell the truth I know that you didn't Give an F about me or my family when we were in need Of some love, sent from above, little angel wings flap your wings save me From me, reality or bad dream save me from this mentality, please [Verse 2] Lately I've been smiling less My heart sinks, now it's drowning but can still feel it pounding I guess it's stress, they say you still alive if you could feel pain But it's strange, I thought I died 'cause all I'm feeling is shame So I hide, or runaway as if I'm running a race, at my pace But I trip, and then I fall on my face Then there's Pop, and then “POP!”, he snaps me back in my place “Get up, don't give up they don't want to see you succeed" And he's right, life lessons, always giving advise ‘Bout how to drive, "don't turn sharp while making a right Use your lights, (in the rain), drive slow it's slippery at night" I'm like "I know this" I got this little plastic card to show it And I know he wants me to take a different road that he chose but sh**! I get it! "well if you got it, why ain't you with it? ‘Cause you still doing stupid stuff as if you never did it Yet you still won't listen, you still don't get it And you still think you know it all, walking ‘round his house, big balls, chest out But still acting like them children?" "Son if you listen to what I say then you will go far Turn your dreams, reality, won't have to work hard If you listen to what I say then you will go far Turn your dreams, reality, won't have to work hard" [Verse 3] Look, lately I've been shedding some tears It's been a couple years now and I see it clear Not every good thing comes to an end, this life is chapters I lose my place but manage to catch balance and it saddens Me, ‘cause as a teen I had a dream, buy my folks a house No spouse, but now I gotta pay for two cribs Two cars, two different ways to live Two roofs over different people's heads, talk about stress At times I wanna cry, so I get high to match my pride (inhale) I gotta come down, I calm down and stay grounded This life's insane I'm trying to find an outlet I guess the outlet's in my mind, life's what you make it I seen the devil snatch it, I seen the devil take it I seen the devil break it, I see the devil asking God for another chance to take my soul, oh no I won't let it go He try and take my soul, oh no I won't let it go [Outro] They try and taint my soul They try and taint my soul, oh no I won't let it go They try and taint my soul, oh no I won't let it go They try and taint my soul They try and taint my soul, oh no I won't let it go They try and taint my soul, oh no I won't let it go I see the devil asking God for another chance to take my soul, oh no I won't let it go