Aspect - Wanted lyrics

[Intro] (Talking) Yo man... Hey... Think about it I went so... I got so far up man Nearly I hit this Platoe Then I started focusing on partying and sh** Then started popping those dam percocets With drinking and f** my whole sh** up [Madchild] It's the dawning of a new era Tattooed, broken tooth and new era I ain't where I'm supposed to be its a true terror I ain't tripping I ain't cripping but I'm blue mirror Mirror mirror on the wall do you remember me? Was the fairest of them all Then I dropped the ball And I was holding flats Sometimes I feel like there's nobody that can hold me back And sometimes I feel like its a wrap, I'm living in a trap I'm giving all I got but they ain't giving nothing back I'm battling depression in my head I'm trying but ill prolly be aggressive till I'm dead And everybody knows of my addictive personality I chased my dream but I'm not living in reality Cards are stacked against me too much time lost God please help me.. why? cause I'm lost [Chrous x2] It's pretty crazy when your dream were so close You could touch em now they seem like old ghosts Now my memories are haunted, hope that they remember me And maybe they still wanted [Madchild] Look, I ain't got alot of time left Got a team but they don't seem to take no f**ing giant steps I try to tell em I could use a little help That's exactly what they give me, gotta do it all myself Most rap performers are just transformers Pretend to be crazy I pretend to be normal When listing to mad they immediately struck Then immediately after they realized he's really f**ed I got no disguise concentrating on my art Mentally demented I'm a monster in the dark Little monster drinking monster walking in the park With my dogs talking awkwardly but obviously sharp They're asking me to make a club song on dubstep It's where the money at but that sh** made me upset Maybe I am focused on my pride a little to tough Or maybe I just love hip-hop a little too much [Chrous x2] [Madchild] I got a dark past hoping it'll disappear But with the internet they still see it crystal clear I need more time walking on the right path Cause I've been fighting with myself it's time to fight back I've done damaged to my brain I've done damage to my teeth All this damage on the surface just imagine underneath And life can be a beach with a beach chair Damaged goods broken down need to be repaired Hard for me to transcribe the pain inside Doing d** 5 years till it drained me dry And if I knew back then what I know now I would've saved up cash would've slowed down Would've spread love would've gave back Would've help show kids that theres a right track I would've kept writing kept making music Kept Battle Axe, kept executive producing But now I'm back and I'm still alive So I will give it all I got till they feel my vibe I'm hoping and I pray they understand me Cause if they don't f** its too late to make a plan B [Chrous x2] [Outro] (Talking) Still gotta open window I'm gonna do one more big lap Before I'm gonna call it a wrap I know I still got what it takes f** these little posers