Ashtin Larold - Scars lyrics

[Intro: Ashtin Larold] Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh [Verse 1: Ashtin Larold] Yeah I don't know how to feel, it's so confusing lately And the person that I look at in the mirror f**ing hates me And he wakes me when I'm sleeping to remind me that I missed you 'Til I remember all the sh** I went through with you And regret turns into apathy I feel nothing for half these girls who try and chat with me Cause actually, I can see the transformation happening Or maybe that's just me imagining Can't get my bearings; all the highs and lows are drastic I go from tragic to fantastic, man, I'm manic I've always been an addict; I'm a fiend for bad decisions Pouring money down my throat and spending time with easy women It's reminiscent of a different time and place My mask's been off for so long, I've forgotten it's my face The same sh**, all that changes is the day Now they just know me by a different name [Hook (x2): Ashtin Larold] I don't know who I am anymore The real me can't be found I fear what I'm becoming But I can't turn back now [Verse 2: Ashtin Larold] Yeah Pour me a drink, I write better when intoxicated I lie sober; when I'm drunk, I don't feel obligated My conscience weighed about a ton before this hit me Now I'm talking to a girl who smells like cigarettes and whiskey Your eyes are pretty; let's learn each other's stories And maybe I can wake up next to you tomorrow morning We'll hold each other, and pretend we feel less empty But I'll see you on the streets, and you'll pretend you never met me I'm not offended; I'm pretending you're a stranger, too Our eyes meet, but I just smile and walk away from you We've read each other's stories, added in a page or two Well, sh**, ain't this just deja vu [Hook (x2)] [Verse 3: Ashtin Larold] I've never felt better, or so I tell myself I get these pains in my chest, and I second-guess my health Cause I remember hell, so very, very well And how exactly being absolutely desperate felt I wear my noose just like a necklace to remind me Of the tiny voice of reason that's inside me Yeah, I saw my mom crying, trying to revive me Five minutes after she untied me But that's behind me, and I'll live to fight another day I cross my fingers, and I promise I'm okay We're different; I just wish you didn't change So put another scar on my chest and take me away [Outro: Ashtin Larold] Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh