ApolloTONE - IM NOT TALKING lyrics

I'll be honest with ya Mentally I'm f**ed up I ain't never lucked up The game never loved us I worked hard for everything I got and somehow I still get f**ed MUSE, Love, Lust and Trust I think it's ridiculous my n***a I found my best friend in the swisher Never thought I could get sicker Just keep me away from the liquor I notice my dreams ending quicker Maybe I ain't getting no sleep It's not my choice to be cheap Its been like this all 52 weeks I'm not careful my nose just might bleed I think about you all the time I mean I think about this all the time Saying names never been my thing But you my partner in crime There you go, There you go They treat me like lucky like there he go I'm really wicked there's no ego I just can't be around everybody in the room They always talking about the music Bringing up me and the muses And then they asking how I'm doing And If I was to tell the truth They'd probably think Im off the rufies The flow got sicker Happy cruising Only answer that I'm choosing Only one that I deserve But at the moment getting served A plate from hell being force fed Might f** around and bust a nerve Fight the sh** I can't even help that I'm fighting it I don't remember inviting it I treat the music like Vicodin Dont be scared I think I'm liking it Manipulation at its finest Mind games for the full timers Closest thing to getting Alzheimer's The stress is coming out as blood You'd think I'm talking bout my hood But the bar is so high for me Jumping off the porch won't do it That's the truth my n***a If you only knew my n***as You'd look at me like how you do it Then keep it moving my n***a I'm not the one to be playing with On the verge of really spraying sh** My heart is a cuban link with all the pressure im playing with Coal with some flare in it No other way to compare the sh** After that ain't no way that I'm scared of sh** You think I'm mad at some sneak disses You hurting yourself playing(Beep)