Apollo - Oceans II lyrics

I was searching for the ocean It only took me 4 long years But even when I found it I kept my body from its cla**y sphere Oh I couldn't tell you how I feel I thought I knew I never will I hid my guilt so I could breathe I cut my face up for to grief Oceans ascending, My heart keeps on mending In spite all the drama, it endures Oceans ascending, My heart keeps on mending In spite all the drama, it endures And I still have dreams about you But you hold me down and punch me out And I still have dreams about you When you hold me back from oceans, oceans, oceans, oceans Here it comes, I couldn't put myself to swim again I didn't think I still love Here it comes I couldn't sleep I couldn't come for you I thought I'll never break this down Oh I couldn't tell you how I feel I thought I knew I never will I hid my guilt so I could breathe I cut my face up for to grief Oceans ascending, My heart keeps on mending In spite all the drama, it endures Oceans ascending, My heart keeps on mending In spite all the drama, it endures I couldn't even tell you how I feel If I knew, I could be Looking like a spitfire ??? Or I could be, dead eyed like a mannequin As I cut and burn my skin As I know, have said before I feel everything, and it is Oceans ascending, My heart keeps on mending In spite all the drama, it endures Oceans ascending, My heart keeps on mending In spite all the drama, it endures And I still have dreams about you But you hold me down and punch me out And I still have dreams about you When you hold me back from oceans, oceans, oceans, oceans