Apathy - Suicide Girl lyrics

[Intro] x2 I don't know what she's doing now Last I heard from her she said She felt as if she should be dead I guess in fact she usually does [Verse 1: Planetary] I never could understand the fact she ain't returned my calls I was the only one that I told her I loved her through all the flaws I would always be the one to show her light in the tunnel I swear to God I need her back, I know she's lost in the jungle I know she need me, can't believe we grew apart so quick She loved trees like me, the way the New Eras fit She loved Tommy Hilfiger, Rugbys, and Adidas A match made before Heaven, why the feelings have to leave us? But they didn't leave my heart so fast I still wish I had her near and had a beer for her gla** Even though I know that's her downfall from the past Still wanna shop for old time sake if she asks Little shot of Crown Royale, maybe 151 So if you see her let her know the plan to have us some fun Well guess what? Today front page of the daily news My queen betting the beam dead right ? what the f**? [Hook] I don't know what she's doing now Last I heard from her she said She felt as if she should be dead I guess in fact she usually does [Verse 2: Doap Nixon] Ever see a jawn so confused and a**ed out? She'll s** any dude off chasing the cash route She went from pompoms to kine bud I watched the innocence transform, obsession to buying d** Little Tooty was a cutie, I swear God Carmel complexion, good grade with a hair bob Ten years later now she's bobbing to head jobs In and out of strip clubs like a career job And she can't see that she's k**ing herself Cause a couple dollars got this drunk feeling herself It's ill how this little girl could be ruthless She can make a n***a with three degrees look stupid She even tried to trick a couple dollars from Cupid Emotionally it'll drain your a** out till you're useless The price is high when you wanna ride With a jawn that's suicide, she's a suicide, c'mon [Hook] I don't know what she's doing now Last I heard from her she said She felt as if she should be dead I guess in fact she usually does [Verse 3: Apathy] She said I must confess it turns me on when I cut my flesh There's nothing left, I'm hollow, I'll follow d**h If it's a change from the mundane Mondays You know my pain, I'm empty inside, my veins pump Novocaine Sometimes I feel like life isn't real And my brain is too busy and my mind don't ever heal I could never shut it off so I'd rather shut it down Do it right the first time, I ain't trying to f** around And she smiles for her friends but the smile is a mask Any memories of happiness are filed in the past I can sit in my garage foot revving on the gas A slash and a gasp or a violent blast I don't believe in Hell unless it's what I'm in I wanna free my soul, straight jump out of my skin She exhaled and sighed, eyes opened wide Suicide, it's a suicide, biddy-bye-bye [Outro] I don't know what she's doing now Last I heard from her she said She felt as if she should be dead I guess in fact she usually does It's so hard for me to explain I guess she has a strange approach It makes her seem beyond reproach Until you find out what she is