Apathy - I Did It To Myself lyrics

[Ryu] Can I get a Guinness? I coulda spent less time whining and more time grinding Coulda spent less time wyling and more time rhyming Concentrate less on Ryu and more on Ryan Spent checks on my family and less on diamonds But I'm only human, I'm consumed by some f**ed up habits Unfortunately life don't come with an instruction packet I really wish it did, I put this on my kids If I knew then what I know now I'd be filthy rich I shoulda listened to my momma; got a scholarship Got a job and go to college like my father did Who knows what coulda been? Maybe I let it slip Because I was too focused on getting into stupid sh** A little stupid kid, shoulda been locked away I coulda been a doctor, but who's to say? The only doctor I wanted to be was Dr. Dre Uh, I did it to my goddamn self I never needed help I was gunning for the gold I was raps Michael Phelps see That was how i felt then they put us on a shelf, We Thought we had advantages from standing next to LP But it wasn't helping, if anything it hurt more When the people handling your biz are on a world tour I ain't got the words for the things I wanna say Coulda spared a little air while you watching us deflate But I coulda spent less time b**hing and more on business Coulda spent less time dying and more time living (I'm alive!) Shoulda shown solidarity instead of division I coulda learned how to drive instead of just getting driven But I thought I found my direction but still couldn't read it Apparently IKEA had them printed up in Swedish Please believe it, I can't complain, Jesus, you know why? I did it to my goddamn self! For delf, for dolo, the wealth, the fame, the shows, the planes, the photos, the fans that still with me see me on DeSoto Never heard of Fort Minor but they love Marco Polo Fish outta water guess I would never learn to swim Either I was outta breath or had a shorter fin I know what the problem is, maybe it's the cigarettes (cough) Maybe its the booze, the free food, the women, yes Yes, maybe everyone's right maybe I don't get it yet Maybe it's my own fault I don't got a blingy neck I'm just trying to get a check, not the one that Jiggy gets Just enough to save up so I guess I gotta spend Less time fussing and more on busting Less time talking sh** and do songs with substance 'Cuz 2012 is coming and I'm like 'f** it' IMMA DO IT BY MY GODDAMN SELF!