Antimatter - Hope lyrics

I was not put here by anyone in fear I came alone as me Just an idea in a long chain of discovery Surrounded by the same you Sometimes your tide pulls me out to sea And I die in a thrashing and curse Sometimes we are kind More often, I doze So far up the beach that those who try to reach are burnt alive in the searing heat of the desert of my dispa**ion So far removed, I never hear the water 'cept once or twice a month when I see a mirror And I refuse to believe in some of the things that are said to be here Let alone those that are not I'm trying to change my direction Ours is pathetic in my own, humble, estimation I love the planet The great benign she-wolf The benefactor Spinning gently on towards the red giant four æons hence When all the rose gardens are consumed in the flash-fire of flying time She'll leave alone to you When you look at me From your own century I may seem to be Strange archeology But when the winds blow From this direction You may sense that I'm In your reflection I think I feel you But I will never know As the swallows leave And the children grow I wanted to live forever The same as you will too I wanted to live forever Same as you will, too I wanted to live forever — And everybody knew When I caught you there In tomorrow's mirror I thought I'd felt you Jump out of my skin Throwing oil into My blazing memories Filling empty footsteps I was standing in I wanted to live forever The same as you will too I wanted to live forever And everybody knew With the falling rain the northern jungle Hanging droplets on the leaves bombards my brain I hear you across the room And see daffodils spring into bloom You are the mist The frost across my window pane And again She moves her body And her whispers weave And the world spins And tells me that I'll never want to leave When I look at you From this dark century It must always be With generosity That we both may share The hope in hearing That we're not just Spirits disappearing