Anonymousone - 200hate. lyrics

**capital steez intro** [Verse One] The most f**ed up era of my entire life Was from 2008-2009 What if i told you if i contemplated murder or even suicide? sh** crossed my mind at the time It my 15th birthday out eating w/ my girls Til i got a call, that ruined my whole world Some punk motherf**er k**ed my best friend Nobody knew who it was; too afraid to confess He shot into a crowd and hit him Didn't even know who the f** he was! He was just a punk b**h on d** Wanting to cause a fight and fuss I didn't even get the chance to say goodbye, why'd you have to go? Remember that one time we went to that party in montebello? We walked around to find somebody who was actually out to use their phone Remember when he hit that spot of the 105 by the blue line and we heard gun shots? You told me stay flat on the ground, so we were on the freeway flat For like an hour, had nothing to do but laugh Every time i was sad, you were the one person who'd have my back Little did that motherf**er know he was about to be a dad And it happened to be the best guy friend i've ever had I was crazy, insane, out my brain Couldn't even maintain to remain the same Doing some crazy as thangs My anger controlled my grief Plus i tried coke and sh**, so i didn't sleep Just cry and weep Why the f** did it have to be me? I took my anger out on my family All because of my grief and animosity Hate is a strong word- But i hate the motherf**er for making my best friend's baby a ba*tard Now i'm sitting in tears, just reminiscing over the years **** [Verse Two] The only way i deal with grief Is the same way i'm losing sleep Up all night, i got demons to fight Taking flight with all this anger on my mind Grief in heart, liquor in my veins, just to maintain my life day to day Don't take life for granted Be happy you're livin, you take the chances and grab them You got a life, be happy that you have it Smoking blunts, crushing up e pills, sniffin' lines, eatin shrooms All bugged out, high as f**, tagging in ya room That ain't the way to go Almost lost my cousin that way So please don't do what they say Be positive even if you're feelin a little pessimistic Cuz life is still there even if it's negative sh**