Annie Proulx - Brokeback Mountain - I Wish I Knew How To Quit You lyrics

[Jack Twist] Well, try this one and I'll say it just once....Tell you what, we could've had a good life together! F--kin' real good life! Had us a place of our own. But you didn't want it, Ennis! So what we got now is Brokeback Mountain! Everything's built on that! That's all we got, boy, f--kin' all. So I hope you know that, even if you don't never know the rest! You count the damn few times that we have been together in nearly twenty years and you measure the short f--kin' leash you keep me on - and then you ask me about Mexico and you tell me you'll k** me for needing somethin' that I don't hardly never get. You have no idea how bad it gets! And I'm not you - I can't make it on a coupla high-altitude f--ks once or twice a year! You are too much for me, Ennis, you sonofawho*eson b**h! I wish I knew how to quit you. (Ennis responded, while crying, telling Jack that he was the source of his conflicted emotions) [Ennis Del Mar] Well, why don't you? Why don't you just let me be? It's because of you, Jack, that I'm like this! I'm nothin'... I'm nowhere... Get the f--k off me!.. (They struggled against each other, and ended up embracing) I can't stand it any more, Jack.