Anfernee. - Small House lyrics

(Verse 1) - Anfernee Hit the record bu*ton Well it was just me my mama and siblings in that small house, small house Made it through the grace of God surviving in a small town Coldest of the winter nights, acraps when it was dinner time Trying to draw a thinner line between starving and getting mine So I rap until I get it right, thankful for my friends Cause they help me when I was trying hard to meet up with these ends I want to keep my conscious clear, but I'm caught up with these sins And I don't want to lose my mind, but my mind don't want to win It seems like everyday there's something new that gets me down Like the other day my headphones broke, and one won't play as loud I seen it with my own eyes the world is really screwed But it's more tragic on the news when the news won't make a sound But I keep quiet about the riots because I got my own issues Like my mama keep on crying and we just ran out of tissues I'm losing my mental cause the motherf**ing rent due And they always told me that no one gon' a**ist you But someone (Chorus) But someone please tell me it get's better than this Cause I can't keep on living (x5) like this V2 It was just me my mama and siblings in that small house, small house Couldn't pay the rent they kicked us all out, all out That was during the holidays, I was still in college days I was trying to find my place, while building a knowledge base Imagine the last thing you see before that last exam Is your life all over the lawn and tears coming from your fam See my Mama at a loss for words dont want to see her hurt again I prayed to God, but I think that he was busy down at Ferguson Cause we ain't got no answer, and we're running out of time I don't want to turn to powder, but I been up on my grind This song it f**ing s**s cause it gets sadder by the verse Cause my anxiety is high, and my depressions getting worse And I want to see my daddy, but he lives so far away I can't make no travel plans, when I ain't got no place to stay Can't make progress when I can barely make it through the day So I pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray that someone (Chorus) That someone would please tell me it get's better than this Cause I can't keep living (x5) like this V3 See it was just me my mama and siblings In that small house, small house We can't barely make it so we call out, call out I been praying as hard as I can, and I still ain't got no answer My heart been broken since mama got diagnosed with that cancer And the doctor's running tests cause it's a tumor in her brain Her body getting weary everyday she in some pain I want a good job so my parents can relax But I'm spending all my weekends getting turnt up to the max Cause I just lost my Aunt Tracy I swear I can't lose another And the cops is out here shooting, I swear I can't lose my brother I cling to God so he can watch over my lil' cousins Cause I swear I don't know what'd I do if I lost my mother Im supposed to be in shape sleeping and making good grades Working towards a future, but the future doesn't look great I'm supposed to be social and building myself a love life But I been so broken in the past that I don't think I can love right But it was just me my mama and siblings in that small house, small house I wrote a song to finally get it all out, all out Im getting to the point where I can't write another letter So someone please tell me it gets better Oh my goodness