Andy B-B - What Used To Be lyrics

[Verse 1] All the thoughts of my past rushing back to me The smiles, the bu*terflies yearning to be set free I never knew we'd get so freaking distant 'cause when I knew her I was so happy, she was so mystic I guess I should have known, should have been more realistic I fell so in love, when she turned me down I went ballistic I thought the hope was real, but she was just leading me on I thought about her daily, but the love game was just a con Drama now when we talk, nasty arguments we cuss I forget the good times in mistakes, even thought there was never “us,” I used to be so jubilant with her, I cherished all the moments It was a one-sided love, now I've crumbled like the Romans I never expected to fall so hard from the top But when you put yourself on cloud nine, I guess it's quite a drop I haven't seen her since for so long, but for some reason I miss her She never felt the same, I guess it's my past I'm after I could've seen it coming, but I misread the signs I thought I'd be with her, that it was in the designs So I'm trapped here, staring at the Mirror of Erised She's the first one I cried for, and at the same time despised Every time I look at photos, I wonder where I went wrong I try to sleep at night, but I end up singing this song And I remember her smile, and the way we both laughed I felt the winds of change coming, but I realized it was just a draft [Bridge 1] She took me to to the park and asked me if I had ever kissed a girl I told her no I hadn't, and then she met my lips, and flipped my whole world I held her and promised her I'd never forget that day And I haven't, but I expected to remember it in a different way [Verse 2] I remember laying in the gra**, getting lost in her eyes But she told me it wasn't meant, then flew away like a dragonfly When I finally saw the truth, a waterfall I cried My foolish love was so strong, like a wilted flower it died Whenever I saw her, it was always a sunny day But now all those happy memories have faded from rose to gray All the pretty gifts from Paris were bought and gone to waste 'cause I put my heart before my brain, making mistakes in my haste I never got to tell her all the love for her I felt ‘Cause she never welcomed those thoughts, and the ice will never melt Now when I talk to her it's only “hello,” or “how is college?” And how I never get to see her, and how the leaves are fallen in foliage What happened to that night, when you wore that beautiful dress? You were the most beautiful that night, and everyone was so impressed Everyone asked me about you, and how long I knew ya I said three years, but that was empty 'cause I never saw through ya A concrete facade you put up, love you only rejected I guess it was infatuation, and now I only feel dejected When you listen to this song, I hope you understand the message I cared so much for you, and you pushed me to the edge When I saw you last, you knocked me out before I could fight Telling me I'd see you never, that was when you crashed my flight That's all I gotta say I guess I'm moving on with my life Moving away from away from all the “ifs” and away from all the strife [Bridge 2] I hope when you find that someone special, he treats you like you're his world Because you deserve nothing less, to me you'll always be that special girl I'll always have a place for you, in my young but exhausted heart That would always stop when I saw you, but I guess now it's time for it to start (Skit: ft. Diana Angelika)