Andrew Jack - Appreciation lyrics

[Hook] I've been afraid for far too long Honestly, I've just been holding on [Verse 1] It was all to admit that I needed help When they loved me, but I hated myself It was ugly, but I made it out Yeah, thank God, f** this My life is such sh**, but not really Not at all, sometimes I drop the ball And I get sad, but (???) See everything that I'm blessed with Missed a lot of sh** that I'm wrestlin' All this money I invest in, like When I break even? Or pray to God This sh** season, put my tools down And make a livin' with this gift that I've been given Like look mom, I did it, here but not quite Not yet, for all the love I didn't get All the shots that I didn't net Less than greatness I won't accept My stock is risin' you should invest I made mistakes, got my own regrets Burned a lotta bridges, learned a lotta lessons And my adolescence, and all the pressure Had me stressin' struggled with addiction And depression, I was naive Swimmin' in the streams of self-pity But I believe in the dreams of my city [Hook][2X] I've been afraid for far too long Honestly, I've just been holding on [Verse 2] If you want them to believe in you Let them know what it means to you This my life, all I ever wanted That's why I write, let me express my appreciation For those who are being patient With my creation, being a combination Of hesitation and complication Lyrical medication of revelation These words'll do me some preservation of life Poetry's my child and I'm raisin' it right With an obligation to fight For what I know in my heart to be right In this time of darkness, maybe I can be the beacon of light God gave me many reasons to write Some people think I'm a lyrical prodigy But I've never focused on what anybody thought of me I'm just a kid on a spiritual odyssey Here to be what I oughta be Letting' it all outta me, and people still doubted me But I'm just takin' my time, for all of my heart I'ma be just fine [Hook][3X] I've been afraid for far too long Honestly, I've just been holding on