Anagnorisis - This Cursed Blood lyrics

All my failures begging for an end. These false promises becoming anchors Drowning with the hopes of something real. Estranged to this person I've become I feel contempt and diseased. Solidifying my hatred of forced existence. Pestilence pulses through my veins Paralyzing me. It keeps me from draining it all. This place I dwell is a hollowed man. Boarded up and black with rot. I dream in better lights with less reflection. Shadows upon shadows cast inside Like d**h masks piled on until there’s no identity. I know there must be more to me. I raise my eyes upward, into the night. Into the darkness that existed before the light. Downward to d**h, the foundation of all life. Sigil marked for non-existence. This cursed blood can't k** what's already dead inside. It becomes misplaced to those I call friends. As I attempt to terraform this misery. Caustic is my nature. Eroding life around me Self-hatred binds my will to change. As a lion let me drink from blood of your Christ Awaiting salvation with open jaws Shepherding hope into the belly of the beast. Digesting tired faith and sh**ting out lies I don't deserve happiness. I haven't earned the right to self-peace. Preservation through malice is the irony As I'm consumed with thoughts of d**h. When time comes I'll enter my forest with no ribbon, just rope.