Vox 1:
"Okay, okay,"
I tell my subconscious
"I know, I know you're right."
And I sit down
I draw a breath
And close my eyes
And I admit
Finally
I'm just like you
Or you, or you
I can be just as stupid
Just as f**ing irritating
Almost as boring
Tedious, in fact
As laborious as you or her or him
There,
It's out in the open now
I won't blame anyone
And this isn't meant to be self-pity, no
It's meant to be plain old honesty
My confrontation of reality
In which I try to find a scapegoat
Every time I hate the way I act
While refusing to own up to
My portion of the blame
Vox 2:
So it ends here, now
I'm going to shut the hell up
For maybe a second or two
'Cause I can never do it for all that much longer
Just take what you can get
People s**, you know?
They're so goddamn infuriating
I hate them
And I'm one of them
So don't think I'm evading responsibility yet again
I just said I wouldn't do that anymore
I'm not that unreliable
I've made mistakes
I've been foolish
I've been the cause of monumental disasters
But at least I didn't k** anyone, right?
At least not physically
Okay, scrap the sarcasm
This is where I admit things
And avoid making excuses
So let me admit this much for starters: I'm a person
Through and through
I'm a human like you
Or anyoneelse
I can be just as tiresome as the rest
I can piss all the off usually only if I decide to try
But sometimes unconsciously
I think the admission part is over, right?
So from here I'll just say that I'm sorry
For being, as the great Jen put it, 'fallible'
Yes, after she said that word I couldn't stop using it
Although I knew what it meant
I still got it from her in a sense
I still remember when she told me
I wasn't infallible
And she said that was okay
And I believed her
Still do
What choice do I f**ing have?
I'm stuck here now on earth
All I've got is what I am
And if I didn't handle that
If I didn't come to terms with it
What kind of life would I lead?
So come, take my hand,
Let's sing kum bay-f**ing-a
And sway like new-age freaks
Like willows in a pretty damn strong breeze – 'cause those're big trees
Let's be at one with ourselves
And with the earth
Or what the f** ever
Another favourite Jen quote
It just came to mind at this time
And I know why
Yay!
I feel better
I finally got real
In the Doctor Phil fashion? No
I did this on my own
'Cause I was sick of kidding myself
By no means is this over though
Maybe I'm only just beginning.
Vox 3:
I think the admission part is over, right?
So from here on in I'll just say that I'm sorry
For being part, as a great friend put it, 'fallible'
I still remember when told me I wasn't infallible
And she said that was okay
And I believed her, still do
What choice do I f**ing have?
I'm stuck here now on earth
All I've got is what I am
And if I didn't handle it
If I didn't come to terms with it
What kind of a life would I lead?
So come, take my hand,
Let's sing kum bay-f**ing-ya
And sway like new-age freaks
Like willows in a God-damned strong breeze – 'cause those're big trees
Let's be at one with ourselves
And with the earth
Or what the f** ever
Again, another favourite Aniga quote
It just came to mind at this time
And I know why
Yay!
I feel better
I finally got real
In the Doctor Phil fashion? No
I did this on my own
'Cause I was sick of kidding myself
By no means is this over though
Maybe it's only just beginning
Maybe I'm only just beginning.
People s**, you know?
They're so goddamn infuriating
I hate them
And I'm one of 'em
So don't think I'm evading responsibility yet again
I just said I wouldn't do that anymore
And I'm not that unreliable
Yeah, I've made mistakes
Yeah, a lot of mistakes
I've been foolish
I've been the cause of monumental disasters
But at least I didn't k** anyone, right?
At least not physically
Okay, scrap the sarcasm
This is where I admit things
And avoid making excuses
So let me admit this much for starters: I'm a person through and through
I'm a human like you, or anyone else
I can be just as tiresome as anyone
I can piss you off easily
Usually only if I decide to try
But sometimes unconsciously
So it ends here, now
So it ends here, now
So it ends here, now
Now