This isn't me
This isn't me
I can't keep coming up with these bullsh** excuses
To justify what I've been doing
Downward spiral or not I can't keep running because
Eventually, I'll be caught
I'll be caught
This overwhelming feeling of shame
I can't pretend, I can't pretend
That it's without reason
All it takes is for you to blink and
Everything you know will fall out from under you
I would lie awake at night
I didn't want this to become my reality
I'm guilty of playing the victim
I'm guilty of being the cause
I'm aware of the effects of my actions
I'm pretty sure all hope is lost
All hope is lost
I cannot pretend that it's without reason