The new year rang in in New York
In a new bar, in an old part of the East Village
And the bartender could not stand to be in her place of work
When 2013 finished
There were student d**hs in the air and all I could think of were their parents
There were university cultural despairs over fairness
And frankly I couldn't have cared less
I had never taken LSD then, and I know now, when you're in it you cannot swim
But he tried, and I could never imagine how beautiful the ocean must have looked to him
People like us, they think we're cute, and I do too
And when you're bothered I know it's the real you
People like you are well-dressed South Bay lighthouses that I crashed into
And now the numbers that had once given me comfort look like my enemy
But I've sunk too many pleasant life plans into this well-adjusted half of me
We never made it to South Padre, and now it seems we never will
In many ways the Texas Coast has always felt impossible
And there's a realization that I was mistaken to end it
Cause you weren't as visibly shaken as I was
Beside me at his candlelight service
And I was so god damn nervous
And you were crying but wordless
The final week that everyone was around
My wrists were open
My veins were open
And I bled colors all the way to Fort Worth
And back again
And I was grasping at something