All you wanted was to bring me back
All you wanted was to keep me safe for another lifetime
But you can't see I will never be the same
(the sweet child you've known)
and everything I've left behind
cannot be restored completely
even after my sacrifice
even after my slaughter
I've tried everything to not end up like foam
but that may be what I wanted
when I lost my faith in certainty
My tears won't become pearls
so I stopped crying altogether
just like you told me so
This story may not even have started
(had I blindly followed your wise will)
but how could I
when you don't do what you're saying
when I misread everything between the lines?
ah....
Wearing the glory of wild flowers
that no one ever sees
until kingdom comes
I'll learn to breathe
through my gills again…