You've got to stop f**ing her up. You've got to grow up. You've got to stop making her cry she thinks you want to and you know she's right. You're showing a side that you don't like. You've got to trust what she feels is there and not need to see it. You've got to let her do what she wants with this secret. You've got to say sorry, then not undo it. You've got to let go if not in your heart then in what you show and in what you start. If you love her like you say, you won't do again what you did today -
she wouldn't even let you brush a tear away. You won't push and push until she breaks. It cannot be, and you've got to accept it. Stop being so weak. Stop being so selfish. You can want all you like, still you won't be getting. When she said you were cruel, boy, she wasn't kidding. No matter how fierce the flames may be you've got to keep your feelings under lock and key. The last thing you want is to feel her withdraw. Do yourself a favour: start thinking of her.