It's not the liquor I'm addicted to it's feeling brave
The feeling of not feeling the pain
I've been off and on the bottle
I've put oxys up my nostrils
Believe me you'd do anything to breathe before you suffocate
I couldn't stop it staying clean wasn't an option
I was trying to be myself but being me was such a problem
I just wanted to be Thomas but Thomas was at the bottom of a hole he'd dug and gettin comfortable inside a coffin
He locked it and swallowed the key caught up forgot all his dreams
Robbed of the common became embalmed in a toxic routine
Beer was the escape but I got stuck escaping
Whiskey was the blanket in the coldest basement
Way before the fame I was wasted
Freezing doing anything I could to keep the flame lit
Anyone going through the same
Heaven's got enough angels you need to stay here
And I can't make you stay
But sometimes goin ain't a choice
And every choice you make is one that you didn't avoid
Crash the whip and ditch the car
Burn a bridge follow the stars
You'll find monsters in the dark but nothins worth it til it's hard
Sometimes it's hard to see things clear (through your tears)
But anywhere is way better than here (fight your fears)
It's not the liquor I'm addicted to it's feeling tough
When you get bullied half your life you feel weak like you just ain't enough
Then you have a couple drinks and you catch a buzz
And finally have the courage to defend yourself and throw a punch
And that adrenaline goes straight into your brain and blood
Addicted to the confidence it's practically the greatest drug
Chasing dragons every night in all the latest clubs
What used to be your favorite thing somehow became a dangerous crutch
It was what it was and that's the thing it can happen to like any of us
I had great parents tight friends strong morals nice threads good school good lookin good grades time spent
Being normal only lasted for a while
One bad choice sparked a downward spiral
I've spent half my life tryin to climb out of that hole
Heaven's got angels we need you at home
And I can't make you stay
But sometimes goin ain't a choice
And every choice you make is one that you didn't avoid
Crash the whip and ditch the car
Burn a bridge follow the stars
You'll find monsters in the dark but nothins worth it til it's hard
Sometimes it's hard to see things clear (through your tears)
But anywhere is way better than here (fight your fears)
It ain't the liquor we're addicted to it's everything else
The happiness we had but we forget how it felt
We been drinkin with the devil cuz we're goin through hell
Pray to God for a little bit of help
Man I been there I did those things
I drank those drinks I took those pills I puked in sinks
And the truth ain't pretty listen up this a tough one
You get saved by your angels or become one
Crash the whip and ditch the car
Burn a bridge follow the stars
You'll find monsters in the dark but nothins worth it til it's hard
Sometimes it's hard to see things clear (through your tears)
But anywhere is way better than here (fight your fears)