[Verse 1: dJ Ghost]
What can I say?
There's no words left
Just thoughts on the table
With bated breath
Lost in time
Yet always on my mind
Feel Tongue tied
But I still write these rhymes
Self-pity
But I've been alone
Stepping out of my comfort zone
Only to be exposed
Yeah I should have known
But I gotta stay composed
Cuz if it's not mutual
Then the feelings are useless
So I gotta keep it moving
Abusing my conscious
Just to weigh the options
Inertia on my actions
To Delay the process
For what?
To discover truths that I already know
Bury my thoughts back inside
Deliver silver lies
To maintain my pride
But still be there to rescue you?
You can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved
Had to learn that the hard way
Watch from the sidelines and not play
Yet always ready to save the day
I know have to show restraint
Because it would never be the same
Side glances and awkward waves
Til everything is gone and left astray
Reality sets in
Perceptions change
Life goes on
And so does the pain
But I want to hold on
Cuz what-ifs will always haunt me
So it's no need for sympathy
I did this to myself
And I can't fix it
Because You can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved
So I'm stuck on the words that I can't say
[Verse 2: Sha]
Father guard my mental state
Scratch let me get a grip
Salty motha s**as smoking sour d and chasing chips
Cop a brick and make it flip...burdens heavy moving weight
Spit a line of powder pact they still can't get the record straight
Now a n***a spent too damn long busy hurtin working
Fighting God looking for a purpose searching
Nights up in the beem busy lurking, swerving
Locked in a box got me yearning burning
Riding with the mob like yeah we deserve it
Wrath of a Titan the scorch of a furnace
Praise to the God give thanks for the sermon
Pages on pages the pain of discernment
Back to the deep ain't no option out
I Been drowning and now I need oxygen please
Lately I haven't been real with myself
Time to get back to my ways in the breeze
Whip it work it got me cooking wit ease
Cla** in the fall graduated in summer
Now I feel like 400 degrees love when it rain
Know I bang when it thunders
MAB deep wit a gang of my brothers you beefing
That sh** ain't concerning me
Gather him sturdily Kevin come get me
I'm about to pop off and turn ish to a murder scene
n***as ain't heard of me pressing through panic
I'm frantic
These n***as ain't holding holding be back (Woah)
Could you imagine the scenes of my canvas
The picture was already black
[Verse 3: Apollo]
Words
Tell me what do they mean
Stay obsessed with the magic
Had me wrapped up in pageantry
Trynna branch out on a new gold leaf
Fruit don't fall far from the apple tree
Trynna use them words to create meaning
Flowers can still grow in the cracks of the streets
Reminded of habits when walking on campus
My conscious is heavy I can't find a balance
I could use a scale flip a zip like a mattress
Commanding attention as if I'm George Hammond
I know it
But no fam I don't even want it
I'm living through moments I'm sweating like sauna
Last night I dreamt screams of my friend get a**aulted
Just trynna survive on the floor of the ocean
Crustacean a** n***a that's living forever
My soul's gotten warmer the colder the weather
My flows getting better the more I regret sh**
Wish I could tell my ex
I was wrong for victim blaming
Was never your fault
Couldn't handle my anger
No wonder you left
I'm just sorry we're strangers
Just words