[Verse 1:]
I'm not askin' for your sympathy or for you to be into me
I'm just feelin' really drained losing sleep and energy
I'm growin' older watchin' younger rappers get ahead of me
But I ain't ever quitin' I'll keep rappin' till I'm 70
I'll never be the dude who quit and never gave is all
I'm a stranger in this world tryna' navigate the halls
I'm my own house I panic I try to relax
But I can't the fact is my credit cards are maxed
And to top that a tapped out line of credit
From one bank with another one close as ever
I'm so deeply embedded although I try to forget it
I have worldwide fans yet I'm still independent
As I'm writing this sentence there's a tear my eye
Because my pa**ion is strong I'm willin' to die
For this cause, am I nuts? I'm so bogged in the mud
But so long to this rut I'm too strong to give up
[Chorus:]
Things aren't all they appear to be
Because I'm still strugglin'
I'm just tryna' stay afloat while I'm jugglin'
All my problems this song is my medicine
You see I'm dealin' with a ma** of anxiety
Dreamin' of the day that I win the lottery
If anybody out there can relate me
Know that you're not alone when you go to sleep
[Verse 2:]
I gota' be honest I'm sorta like animal trapped
Since I was young I've been dealin' with these panic attacks
It's like my brain sees things on a level that's deeper
These thoughts can leave me feelin' troubled and eager
It's a part of the reason that I'm able to make
Beautiful things that this mind of mine can create
In the same stroke brain goes crazy at times
I gota' chill with the lights off to straighten my vibe
I struggle inside every day I battle my thoughts
If they tell me I can't do it I'm provin' them wrong
Do I even belong on this blue planet there we're on?
Man how many emotions can I cram in a song?
But this is bringin' me calm it's therapeutic to me
I talk it out with myself as I maneuver the beat
So I can show you some deep things that you couldn't see
And at the same time give myself a bit of relief
[Chorus:]
Things aren't all they appear to be
Because I'm still strugglin'
I'm just tryna' stay afloat while I'm jugglin'
All my problems this song is my medicine
You see I'm dealin' with a ma** of anxiety
Dreamin' of the day that I win the lottery
If anybody out there can relate me
Know that you're not alone when you go to sleep
[Verse 3:]
You wanna know why I'm gettin' famous so late in my life?
Well… durin' my early 20s I hated my life
I always hung with the same folks I drank and chain smoked
I never had paid shows but that's how the game goes
When you wanna be heard and wanna climb up the ladder
Buildin' a name in the clubs movin' battle to battle
I even won it all once so what, what did it matter?
Sure I won a bit of a cash and my pockets were fatter
For a couple days but man I needed my bills paid
So my dream of makin' it big faded away
Plus I was sick of livin' such a negative away
So I traded the stage in for an hourly wage
I went away for a bit I had to gather my wits
I had to find myself inside and when I did
I made a comeback at the age of 26
And started usin' my gift to motivate and uplift
[Chorus:]
Things aren't all they appear to be
Because I'm still strugglin'
I'm just tryna' stay afloat while I'm jugglin'
All my problems this song is my medicine
You see I'm dealin' with a ma** of anxiety
Dreamin' of the day that I win the lottery
If anybody out there can relate me
Know that you're not alone when you go to sleep