[Verse 1]
I'm getting paid everyday
That my dreams fade away
And it seems I'm okay
But I'm feeling astray
And adrift from reality
And faculty
At school
Tell my people I'm all that
But I a**ure you I'm far from it
Top Ten in my cla**
They're glad
But I don't want it
Not like I'm number one
And believe me I'm far from it
I couldn't make to the top if I tried
And I don't want to
But the idea of being beaten
Is something I can't stomach
Why I gotta study Calculus to make money
I just want to read and spit fire all summer
And I know I have to
Keep my grades up to succeed
But the better my grades get
I just feel dumber
It's a bummer
My creativity can't be standardized
Instead it gets liquidized
I know how to solve quadratics
Find the limit on functions
But I don't know about taxes
Or unemployment
Or my odds of finding a job
College is cool
But I know some doctors
That work at McDonald's
So there's something else
They're not teaching us
But they're beeseching us
To go to college
And gain more knowledge
But their just preaching to us
Look sir I don't want your Sermon
Sir I just I want to be certain
That my life's good when I close this curtain
The story of my life is ending
And the Sequel is getting to close
To the present
And presently
The presence of people
Has been pernicious to me
Because everyone is looking like viscous
To me
That's just suspicious of me
Because society has made us competitors
And to move forward
We have to defeat each other
Even though our goals are so
Separate from one another
I want to be a writer
He wants to be a doctor
But the there's only room
For one more N**** in the college
And any baller from outta state
Can probably take our place
It makes me shudder
I just want to chill
With my brothers
And be free to do as I please
I'll still work for the money
But there's lots to learn
And I got years to burn
So college should be the outlet
That my power comes from
But to make it to college
My power gets blighted
So I'm dead inside
But the family's excited
I'm on the path to success
But that path ain't mine
They rather have sit at a desk
Than to write these rhymes
And that's the Real
[Verse 2]
My confidence has faded away
And I imagine myself failing
Every single day
I'll be just another man
In our society
Who failed to achieve his dreams
And probably struggle with sobriety
It's in my blood
So why should I try to be different cuz
Cause my picture was to
Change the world
But that image swirled
Because
With myself I quarreled
I'm too lazy
To do what it takes to achieve my goals
I used to be driven and determined
To boost my attributes
Because my attitude
Said my aptitude
Was infinite
And that was absolute
Until
Recently I got tire of competing
And beating
Or losing to people
I'm not trying to battle with
I'm tired of battling
I'm tired of struggling
I'm tired of smuggling
My true desires
Because it's for the wrong reasons
That I'm hustling
I'm about to f*** my life up
Thinking about probability of becoming a writer
Or a rapper
My dreams have trapped me
Now I'm too smart to do what I want
I want
To find a better way to explain myself
I want
More knowledge of words to explain myself
I want
To just stop rapping and talk to yall
About how
My future
Is looking dim
Why I condemn
Myself for
Being way too lazy
To work
On my sk**s
Because in my field
Of expertise
I am no expert
See
See this creative s***
Is bliss for me
It's ecstasy
But in the real world
Can I make some extra cheese
I just want to do what I love
But success is too farfetched
It's like painting
The perfect picture
With an etcher sketch
It's hard I bet
I hope I don't drop it
I hope that when I'm
Putting my pen to this paper
And my fingers to these keys
Sampling beats
Making MP3s
Spitting out my soul in my homie backseat
On snapchat
Trying to boost my popularity
Writing comic books about Asija Peace
The Sage in me
Will come and bring
My mind to ease
As I focus my chakra
And build my ki
And that's The Real
[Verse 3]
Seventeen years
I've been grinding my whole life
Been trying to get in
With academics
Thinking it'd be nice
To become a doctor in science
But that I almost failed twice
Never made second choices
Had to make the first right
But the first choice was wrong
So now I'm writing songs
That no one
Will sing along to
I feel blue
I feel sick like flu
Down on my luck bro
I'm stuck like glue
Wish I was more like you
You can do whatever you put your mind to
But I'd forget about it
Before I even had the time to
And now I'm taking college cla**es
Trying to get a grip on life
But as soon as I arrive
I feel I cannot survive
I used to feel alive
Like
Back when I was five
A few years later I just could not thrive
Like
I used to
In school and out of school
I used to be the man
Then
Out of school I couldn't hang
Cause I had to be the man
In school
Now
In school
And out of school
I've just become a sham
I'll
Let the most important things
Slip right between my hands
I'm
Not
Worth
S*** anymore
And you could s*** on my grave
I'm nothing but a knave
Like
I've become a slave to
Loosing it all just to ball for pretend
Loosen for fake friends
And making more ends
Should be building a future
But I make amends
To the things that'll just bring me down in the end
Why can't I
Do what I know I need to survive
I make things harder on myself
Getting further and further
Away from wealth
But should I yell
Should I try to find some help
Or should I try to help myself
They say the s*** don't stink
Man even my bull I smelled
And still managed to let my head swell
They say try not to dwell
On the past so much
I still worry about the past
Past the past few months
Several years could pa**
And you'd still hear grunts
About some Bulls*** that I just made up
When really I'm pissed at myself
And the frustration
That I have will amount into laziness
My alias
Is a hard working brother with a dream
Really I'm just a lazy
N**** with a team
That might lift me up
When I'm down in dust
When I'm all bust up
They could cut my rust
But if I could just
Think for myself
Then maybe I'd learn enough
To move to the next step
Because I've been missteping
Every step that I'm taking
I'm staking myself
And breaking
But faking
Like I ain't aching
And shaking
Every morning I'm waking
I'm mourning
And flaking
Because I've decided that I'm mistaking
The path that I'm taking
Has been misshapen
And I can't shape it
I might go ape if
I can't shake it
Off
And that's hard luck n***a