[Verse 1]
I'm tired of feeling tired
So I let it flow
When I'm writing
That's the only time I think I grow
Have I outgrown
The silly struggles
That slowed me down
Still looking in that Broken mirror
With my broken smile
Still in the struggle of
Breaking leaches
And k**ing demons
I've k**ed myself in that process
So you can catch me clinging
To the memories
That I made
When I was alive
I've tried to look to the future
But can't see with these eyes
Instead I'm living in the present
Stuck between The promised land
And where nothing is destined
Stuck between the drama
And the karma
And the lessons
That I've been trying to learn
For the past 12 sessions
What was lost?
And what was gained?
I gained a little knowledge
But accumulated pain
I gained a little mileage
But I think I've cracked the frame
And I lost a couple friends
That probably could have remained
If curiosity and lust
Had never occupied my brain
If the magnitude of trust
Had matched the magnitude of lust
Then maybe
It would have made a little more
Sense when I bust
Shots at your dome
I'm gone
Unwelcome signs
On the door left open
The gate of truth
Permanently broken
Re-write the truth
When the gate gets opened
[Hook]
I can't see you in my memories
I don't give a f*** what you may say about me
If you ain't even a part of me
(You're hard to see if)
I can't see you in my memories
Don't give a f*** you say about me
Because I can't
See you in my memories
[Bridge]
I can't even see you in my...
I can't even see you in my...
I don't even want to see you in my...
I just want to see you...
[Verse 2]
I never stopped dreaming
I'm still looking for freedom
I've changed my mind bout religion
Hope they don't call me heathen
I stopped taking my medicine
Hope that I don't stop breathing
And I've been feeling
The side effects of it every weekend
And it ain't like I'm out on the regular
I try my very hardest to runaway from the pedestal
When I'm feeling self conscious
I go out and buy another coat
If the going gets tough
Imma cover struggle with Karat Gold
Venturing through the rabbit hole
Searching for super sanity
When I see it I grab it whole
Find reality
Grab a hold
The Great Gatsby
Of gallantry
Lost his grip
And then torched his soul
Soul searching through a couple songs
Wrote a couple raps about it
Then proceeded to leave it alone
Pray that the world doesn't leave me alone
I try to hide
And run along
But I think attention may have been
What I needed all along
[Hook]
I can't see you in my memories
I don't give a f*** what you may say about me
If you ain't even a part of me
(You're hard to see if)
I can't see you in my memories
Don't give a f*** you say about me
Because I can't
See you in my memories
[Verse 3](Repeat 11x)
My eyes don't cry no more
[Hook](Repeat 2x)
I can't see you in my memories
I don't give a f*** what you may say about me
If you ain't even a part of me
(You're hard to see if)
I can't see you in my memories
Don't give a f*** you say about me
Because I can't
See you in my memories