Yeah! now i f**ing get it... what you meant when you said moving as far as i can will change everything... i never understood it then but i understand it now the options are slim, the placements perfect no one knows me here... and all those moments i spent screaming at the wall... hoping maybe your picture could answer back... and sometimes, and sometimes, i wish i didnt care. yes sometimes i wish i coulld never hear your voice...then maybe this would be easy, maybe this would be as simple as the way it hurt you, without thought or reason, without a shred of compa**ion.. and the f** ups.. im never coming home. its so easy when there is someone else to blame but i see that same f**ing face every f**ing day. im spending every second wishing i could take it all back and you were so different this is the end. i never got it i never knew what it meant you only appreciate someone when theyre f**ing gone and you kept drinking, until i didnt exist..well im sorry...im sorry...im desperate...im sorry and for once...im speechless