My law insists
The door is open to reflect the precise moment
There is no mistake
Shed this skin
It is already buried
But you carry the shadow
Bury this skin
You'll carry
Someone so far
Show them
You are free
They are called out in remnant
The spirit open
The door open
You must walk through
This is for you
Everything is done
You are most beloved
And my way is made safe
You need never doubt
For I am my own
I will always keep you safe
I want this pain
It's all I have left of you
A darkened room
I commune with you
Yes, I have to have this pain
No need to recover
Or replace with another
Yes, I want this pain
I want this pain
Shocking in its magnitude
What you dared put me through
Still I have to have this pain
I did not survive without it
As you threatened, kicked, clouted
Yes, I have to have this pain
Yes, I have to have this pain
Not as a talisman, not as a reminder
But as a scored edge against anything kinder
Lest I lose my footing
Lest the ground gives way
Lest I find that tiny bird
Who gave in and flew away
Yes, I have to have this pain
Yes, I have to have this pain
I have to have this pain
Yes, I have to have this pain
Can you come and get me?
Come quickly, don't forget me
There's blood on the floor
But not any more
Please come and get me
Please come and get me