A black summer night, no moon, the thick air
drenched with honeys**le and swamp gum.
In a pool of yellow torchlight
on a knife-blade, the brand name
Hickey Miffle—
I give in to meaninglessness, look up
try to read smudges of ink
a live squid squirts
across the seats – now the smell of the river hones
an edge inside my brain,
the night sky, Mallarmé's first drafts.
Who can I talk to now that you have left
the land of the living? The sound of more words.
The moon rolls out from the side of a mountain
and I decide to earn the rent;
the net pours into a thick chop,
a line of green fire running before the moon's light –
does four-inch mesh have anything to say tonight?
The mulloway might think so if they could –
Ah, Wordsworth, why were you so human?
On Friday nights I fork out comfort,
but tonight I work with holes, with absence.
I feed out a half-mile of mesh pulling the oars;
this comes once a life, a song without words
a human spider spinning a d**h web
across the bay. Alcohol, my friend my dark perversion,
here's to your damage:
who do you think you are?
My mother the belly dancer, my father Silence,
my house that repairs itself wherever I go.