[Intro]
Yeah, n***a what time is it
Like four in the f**ing morning?
You damn right, yeah
[Verse]
At 18 I thought that I had mapped out our live
f**ing b**hes touching riches all from penning the rhymes
I'm 25, and f** it I won't tell you no lies
We blow the bank on random nights but I'm still trying to survive
That's why I push start this Benz time to take me a ride
I'm losing drive, I cruise my city just to catch me a vibe
It's no surprise I'll take this right on Bushwick, bumping Future new sh**
Gettin stares from this b**h who probably got some loose lips
Truth is, I was diagnosed with Lupus on my twenty-first birthday
I brought it in the worst way
It's ironic that's a night you not supposed to forget
But where's the party, ain't I supposed to be lit
Instead I'm in this hospital bed, being pumped with these meds
Getting questioned like they come from the feds
And as I hold my momma's hand, she still tryna understand
How her perfect baby boy end up in this new position
I wish that you would listen, I'm not the perfect Christian
And maybe this is karma for all my awful decisions
Depression starts to set in as them days road past
I know them nurses heard them curses as I broke that gla**
I wrote some verse, I was nervous, I embrace my past
And now I guess the only question, is ya boy gonna last?
And that's my biggest fear
My family hearing from a doctor he's no longer here
But f** that I'm a rider
If this my last run, grab the cherry Gatorade
Let them know I'm not afraid, I'ma middle finger Satan
f** a n***a hatin'
I'll run until my last breath or feel my ankles breakin'
Even the I'll crawl
I swear to God we'll ball all before you get the call
I'm holding up this wall, but who gon' be here if I fall
f**, somehow I just won't quit
I been through too much sh**, this world can s** my dick
They show me pictures of my ex and I'm like f** that b**h
Cause we supposed to ride or die so when the f** that switch
You was ghost when I needed you most
I thought about this line back seat in a Rolls
I thought about that time you had came to a show
Even though I was the opening act, you had my back
And you was there for me
Front row with all your friends, yeah you cheered for me
You brought that bottle we got showed ya here for me
It was real then, now I got a bunch of broads that fill in
I'm pretty sure that you'll say I'm the villain
Won't stunt it though, I'm chillin'
It's just different perspectives
I was young and I was dumb, yeah when we met I was reckless
I guess it's time I swallowed pride, you know it's hard to admit this
But I'm sorry for it all and that's with God as my witness
I was supposed to share this life with you
I was cool I wasn't tripping off no fight or two
I swear that hatred came from out the blue
So did that text that said that we were through
That's why I thank the Lord I got the crew
When I was stuck they always been the glue, so true
They been some riders damn near down since diapers
Their loyalty been priceless since we rolled them blunts in cyphers
And now we wild as ISIS, I'm caught up in this crisis
I'm wildin' till I'm touching gold and n***as call me Midas
I swear bro it's a virus, and you don't feel it once you in the mix
I swear, I swear this hood stole all our innocence
My homies feel the same and trust it's not coincidence
We don't want no nine to five, n***a f** your benefits
What my n***a probably pack in his trunk
In a week he'll make about what you made in a month
So what's your move, how you weigh these options
You wanna be the overlooked or be that n***a poppin'
I always felt I played the hand in all this sh** that we do
It's certain parts to this story that I wish wasn't true
My best friend chose to trap, I ain't know how to react
He chose that lifestyle all so I can make it off rap
Now he cautious only taking back streets
Using signals, driving slow just so he don't attract heat
I'm sitting pa**enger, the speakers leaking Reasonable Doubt
I'm finally getting what these bars is about
That's why we out here tryna get it
He double parks and goes and handles business
A lifetime consequence that took a couple minutes
Yeah he in it, and only falling deeper
Until I make a profit off what's coming through your speakers
No words could ever reach us, but sh** we here together
Ignoring our reality as if that's any better
But f** it, it's whatever, I never saw you as a friend
You proved it's love time and time again
We was them boys and now we grew to men
I swear to God we riding till the end
I'm only here cause you believe in me repeatedly
I don't know what you seen in me
You got my word I'll get you out that scenery
Recording facts while I'm painting these pictures
At the heart we just some loyal wild Brooklyn a** n***as
I'm bettin they'll still question why I want it so bad
So let's talk about the lack of influence from my dad
Only called on birthdays, I wasn't seeing him often
Now if I wanna hear from him I gotta talk to his coffin
This marathon get exhausting, but for years I been all in
You only start to hear it ring when you feel it's your callin'
So why the f** was I stallin' by now we should've been ballin'
At what point do it all fall in I hate this sh** that I'm recallin
d**h be plaguing my mind, I just lost my n***a
Who left his daughter behind, I swear it wasn't his time
I'm at your funeral and can't believe it's true
Your family hung that picture up of me, Speez and you
I saw it and fought it and caught this pain in my chest
Heart beating fast, coughing catching my breath, can't let them see I'm a mess
This how I hold back the tears, brody I wish you was here
I still remember you saying in rap I'm top of the tier
How could I forget, I'm laughing at myself, how'd I think I'd ever quit
A problem I'ma fix cause I ain't drop no sh** in three years
Still getting tweets from the fans, oh yeah they still here
I still ain't seek a feature from these people that I call peers
I'm bound to die a legend, that's a point I want to make clear
Nike can check it, I finally accept it I'm back with my best sh**
n***a respect it, neglect it, I'm pushing it forward
I'm still amazed I get this praise but I'm still finding it awkward
How they found me off the internet, related and caught it
When I release this music bloggers gonna review and report it
And why the loyal a** fans went to iTunes and bought it
I swear I'm humbled, hands on the Bible that's how I met Ito
Exchanged some messages then made our run for the title
Since day one he been f**ing with me
He still would send me heat and he was signed to FV
Kept it G and he my n***a for that, that's why it's bigger than rap
That's why this dream is still alive I know I owe him some plaques, facts
These was just some clips from my movie
This that alternate ending where n***as thought that they knew me
It's why no matter what I'll always feel I'm the one
And this is why I left it all here, if this my last run
If this my last run
If this my last run
If this my last run