I don't see me ever moving
I foresee me ever loosing
I Can not find some thing worth, wasting my time doing
Don't I deserve more then this
Drama bullsh** is endless
The feelings of sleeplessness
Surrounds me so I find
Myself writing down
Thoughts waittin'
For the dawn
Hope today will be my day
Im Tired but don't even yawn
In my car I stay
Insomnia, restlessness
Unable to rest like the rest
Cradle my dreams
Of being the best of the best
Dragging me down
Drowning me
Under the unbearable stress
It's obscene I'm still living
At home with my folks
Try as I do and roam but
I can't leave this scene
If there was a god their mean
Even for not believing
The repercussion seems hard
I try forget and drift
Away with the percussion
But my mental state stays
Deep thoughts are rushing
Through my head
I'd rather be in bed
But I'm here rapping instead,,
No fuel, can't use, my card
So I'm stuck, in my car
Tearing my, brain in half
Toke from the clear smoke
And raring to start
So I sit here smoking
And practising my on art
Looking for work
But hard to find effort
To begin the search
But i made the bed
Now i sleep in what's deserve
Counting change makes
Me feel worthless
I need a change yes
The Day to day way
I'm living is more likely
Gunna get me arrested
And I can't let my self
Live like this
Disown my life's past decisions
I'd need a restart
To get things right
Doin my own thing
Is barely getting me by
Only two ways out
I see are getting high
And watch my life strive, past
Driving in to the ground, fast
Or do the impossible
Bring my self out, of this faze
I'm going crazy
Stuck in a maze
Going round and round
Seeing the same sites
Over and over again
Isn't this the meaning of being insane
Doing this same thing
Over and over again
And expecting a different result
Im still awaiting
The landing
From my earlier pole vault
Will I bounce or roll
Hopefully bounce land
On my feet and feel tall
But I can't even think now
Wat is worth fighting for,,