Yeah really should have wrote this sh*t down
Can't even speak my mind without writing it
It's cause I'm that cloudy right now
Can't speak my mind
Till I speak my mind
Right now
And I'd rather be surrounded by vultures than those who idolize me
At least they'll feast on my carcass not on my dying body
I've watched em tell me that they love me to my face
And then they turn around and fu*k me from behind
I've watched people create enemies out of thin air, living just to make sure that people fear them
I've listened to those closest in my life right now and I'm not sure if they know that I can hear them
They keep saying you're the sum of the 5 closest people around you
Don't realize how that makes me feel
Face turning warm, realization sinks in
These people don't define who I really want to be
But these people define who I am at this moment
These people define my darkest desires
Lust, Greed, Pride, Sloth
Love, Sex, Drugs, Death
Got enough money for another month of rent
But what about the month after that
Kinda wanna run to the west part of the map
Live up to names that resonate in my soul
Pick up where Diogenes left off
Speak from the streets like Emperor Norton
Live how an artist should, practice in the methods of Erik Satie
Made a schedule for myself but society got in the way
Maybe I should leave it all astray
Listen back to my old music, you {CAN'T fu*kING} tell what I'm tryna say
Don't really think I can boil it down lower than this
I know a guy who claims to know people
He spends about %50 of the conversation explaining to you how he reads and understands people
But is always the one you have to explain the situation to
Took you 5 months to see that I don't give a fu*k
Talk about being a stoic while you complain about your inner demons like no one else in the room is struggling
It's all love, bruh
Am I the only one who notices way too many Freudian Slips
Or maybe that's all a bunch of bullsh*t
It seems you notice more coincidences when you get in your feelings
They're probably always there
You just notice them when you pay attention
Once you break out of the simulation
And realize all the signs
Wrong Way
Turn Around
Run as fast as you can
But I'm still sitting here reflecting