[Verse 1]
Grinding with time in my city
Buy happiness with my money
Drugs , hennessy , whiskey
Pay everything with my blackcard .. Put everything in my bagpack
Just for the pain man i work hard
No limits i did parties all night long with myself and i swear that i dried them all
Felt the change for the first time
Forgot the pain for the first time
Finally so i could smile
Filled my pressure for a long time
Forgot my name for the first time
Hangovers .. Headache
My step was so much jerky
My thoughts inside become so thin
Smashed a window coz i was angry
Lost a lot of blood but i was happy
I ran hard all around the city
It was all and nothing for me
Even the firemen was a joke to me
I lost my mind , my belly hurted me
I remember when i felt the vomit
Back at it again with another one each week .. each night i was the result of a disaster
22 years of pain accumulated not even a lovely thing to save this sinister
Not even a good example for my little brothers how can i be the f**ing elder ?
Not even a good son what about the sacrifices did by my parents how can i forget my mother ?
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I must dream about the different ways to work on my rise
But i more focuse on my pain by trying write off history without any cla**
I already smoke a thousand times and died in my dreams
But i'm looking for it now coz' i want it by any means
Let it go for the worst..
Let it go .. Let it go for the worst ..
[ Verse 2 ]
Make the impossible to evacuate
Pray God .. See a specialist to elevate
But this sh** doesn't work
And my mind clearly blacked out
I tried to fill my tears with some girls and we hang out
Restaurants.. Movies..Affections .. sh** was hella weak coz' these b**hes ignored me out
I was truly broke inside and i began to smoke just because i was tired to figure out
I was enable to fill my pain with hangovers so i completed this sh** by rolling out
f** that .. f** everything
I'm tryna stay strong but the struggle is real
Sometimes i feel good and i know i'll make it
Sometimes pain is fierce and i just can't handle it
f**.. My weakness is big
I smoked until i sank in my own steam .. my own feels
I drown until i find a new way to live without fear
All i want was an healthy life
All i do now is bury my heart
Coz' i want to make it well
Prolly deserve well
Drunk for the first half .. Smoke the last as well
But who cares about my scares ?
What about my fall ?
What about my path ? What about my love ?
Drink..Smoke..Chill..f**..Sing..Rap
Mess' with everything to show that i ain't strong at all
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