[VERSE 1]
Trust was something I ain't get the concept of that
Every time you left the house I damn near had a heart attack
I ain't know about forgiveness sh** all I knew was spite
Even still I didn't get it when the tables flipped to cite
Me as the culprit, wasn't sensitive to hearts broken
Pissed that ya in feelings never focusing, on the truths that in feeling that I've spoken
Though I see, I see what the lies did to me, it deprives from the vibes I release
Cause the pride that's inside is my peace
And love is chaotic, that's why needs some narcotics
To so some emotion and show some devotion in public I do in the private
I do it profit I do it in music cause music you digest
And I don't feel none of you care enough bout it to pick out the issues that's found in my logic
I'm either a prophet, or I'm fool, force me to chose
And I'd say the latter is such a more accurate view
And sometimes I feel like I've done everything I do
And sometimes I feel I shouldn't be nothing to you I'm f**ing confused
[HOOK]
Cause I don't wanna live like this no more
Gon pack all my sh** & hit the door
I'm learning to forgive & to forget
So Lord won't you grant me this wish
Help me to not be bitter
Cause I don't wanna be that n***a
I don't wanna be angry I just wanna understand
Over time the pain will lesson one day we can all be friends
I have not yet learned my lesson but it won't happen again
It won't happen again
[VERSE 2]
I wonder one day back in 01, maybe it was 02 I was so young
And my dad came to pick me up my grandma kicked him out and said around here you don't come
To keep it real it was funny in my mind it was funny at the time I ain't understand the situation
All I know is I was riding with my grandma basis cause I ain't like going to church every Sunday waking
Up at 8am, getting there at 9 we ain't leaving until 3 o clock and by that time
Most the football was off TV so I did mind thee new rules that was set line
But now I see that she was tripping though, but I don't ever wish I could've seen it different though
Cause is what it is was it was plus it taught me that it's critical
To learn how to forgive forget and then move on
Cause you make mistakes how grown
Growing up was crazy but they did best
And no I ain't have everything but most around had less
Dressing to impress only got me stress
I remember wishing I was poorer just to fit in with the rest
But in a way sh** I feel I deserved what I receive
Cause dealing with the struggles only got me what I need
(one mo' time)
[HOOK]
Cause I don't wanna live like this no more
Gon pack all my sh** & hit the door
I'm learning to forgive & to forget
So Lord won't you grant me this wish
Help me to not be bitter
Cause I don't wanna be that n***a
I don't wanna be angry I just wanna understand
Over time the pain will lesson one day we can all be friends
I have not yet learned my lesson but it won't happen again
It won't happen again