I know no joy
Only sorrow and pain
I have everything to lose
And nothing to gain
Once I stood so very tall
Now I feel I'm nothing at all
As i search, this quest gets shorter
What doesn't k** me makes me stronger
Forever fading, losing my grasp
I wonder who's having the last laugh
Each night I sleep as if it were my last
I tire of living out life's task
I feel I can no longer hold on
So it's you who must stand up and be strong
These things I meant to tell you
With my own voice
But I was hurting so much
I didn't have a choice
There's nothing left for me now
You must carry on somehow
You may not understand
But it will come to you
Just what I've been going through
Deep in my heart I know I'm good
Sometimes I don't see it even if I could
I have to do this to be free
I can't take any more misery
Overcome these thoughts that surround me
I can feel myself drowning
There's so much I could never live up to
I never meant to be a burden to you
I can see you as the tears swell up
Find your strength, don't ever give up
These questions I long for
Which were never sought
This isolation
Further spreads the rot
Release these chains that
Kept me all in a bind
Relinquish myself to
Have peace of mind
My life's been punctuated
My price for hesitating
Total self-detonating
There's no other reasoning
To rid this impostor inside
Time to say goodbye
I apologize for putting you
Through all this
Deep in my heart
Who I always will miss
Take care, so long, miss you, forever
Goodbye