[Verse 1]
I never wanted this
Promises that could never be kept
This sh** be haunting me constantly
Three days since I've slept
Cause I had a dream that I chased rap
And homie I was so relentless
But I never got my shot
And so in time I took my exit
This music sh** is crazy
But I'm insane so it's the perfect match
All I ever wanted to do was write raps
And perfect my craft
Cause back when I was younger
Every winter, every summer
I would contemplate my future
Hoping one day I would come up
[Chorus ]
Read my signs
Don't leave me behind
[Verse 2]
Read my depression
Act one
A youngin' switched continents
Genesis motherf**er
How it started b**h
Just a monkey in a jungle
Filled with politics
Dazed and confused
Young and naive
Mentally bruised
Alone in my weep
And I'd cry so often
Kids would laugh at me talking
I hated my life
I wanted to die
And times would darken
Amplified by the hurt in my voice
God damn the pain was constant
f** this I'm done with it
I convinced myself
It ain't worth being
I convinced myself
Life was unforgiving
Held a knife
But I never did it
Too scared to die homie
Too afraid of just living
Tired of that bullsh**
MJ, Scottie Pippen
But life moved on
I live in the beats
I sleep in the songs
And when life goes on
I look at the sky
And sing this to God
[Chorus]
Read my signs
Don't leave me behind
[Verse 3]
Read my obsession
Act 2 was my therapy
I become more reliant on the melodies
I become defiant at my enemies
Then I fell for a woman
Who would damage me
Yes I wanted her
And I decided
But truthfully it was unrequited
Nighttime blues are what I'm reciting
Love hurts
Water through my eyelids
Broken down
Need to stop crying
So I broke down heavily
Baby girl I remember
What you said to me
"I don't like you Nick. You're my bestie."
You'll never realize
How you really left me
Cause damn we had some memories
You would look at me
And tell me everything
I would look at you
And feel your energy
And you would rock my world
Like Yosemite, endlessly
We moved on
So I live in the beats
I sleep in the songs
Put my heart at ya feet
When life goes on
I look at the sky
And sing this to God
[Chorus]
Read my signs
Don't leave me behind
[Bridge]
Good guy, bad guy
I'm sick of all those ups and downs
[Chorus]
Read my signs
Don't leave me behind