[Verse 1]
I'm wonderin why I wanna be in the rap game
Cause it's basically just a trap game
They say I'll be spittin bars, till im locked behind em
I'm gonna be the best don't see why I should remind em
Lamboguini mercy, my chick ain't that thirsty
Cause I can't afford it with a job at papa murphys
Nobody try to murk me, nobody make me thirsty
Women the only things that have ever hurt me
Am I worty am I worthless
Is it even really worth this
What the hell is my purpose
I'm moving like a tortise
How am I supposed to be a rapper when I grew up in the tuk
I tried some alchol once and it made me wanna puke
I'm never smoked no weed, ain't got my first key
I just question deep down what I'm really gonna be
Is it me they gonna see on the billboard and the records
And I'm half black half white just like a game of checkers
But I prefer chess, bah I prefer yathzee
I wonder what it's like to have the paparatzzi
In the rap game lobby, drinking hot coffee
Don't have a girl to ride shotty, or even my own posse
I have Novembers notorious, but it's really just me
Cause a person with talent just hasn't met me
I'm sitting in the lobby, Waiting for my name call
Lookin at the ground shakin up this magic 8 ball
Looking for a purpose looking for a reason
Wondering why rap is something that I believe in
I didn't change I grew up, I;m bringing my whole crew up
Fame Over Sanity, the lifestyle I threw up
[Hook]
[Verse 2]
I was dreaming when I wrote thi so forgive me if it goes astray
I've always been a skinny dude I'm looking at my shoulder blades
Sorry, You got questions but lemme answer first
I don't understand the phrase “what happens when you get worst”
Cause I guarantee half a mill just off my first week
I guarantee half a mill just off my worst week
And I'm stuck on the mary jane girls
No really look em up they're called the mary jane girls
I'm shook up and I'm shook down
When I'm at the top I hope I never look down
But I'm spitting with such wickedness
That the flow is sick with this
They be like oh is nick with this?
I be like oh yeah nick with this
The rap game I might stick with this, cause I guess I'm ok
Every tear drop...ah whatever, shout out to coldplay
Cause deep down I hope I can make music that is timeless
A diamond is just a rock so why ain't it priceless
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
I can't go back to yesterday, I was a different person then
That right there was a quote from alice and wonderland
I'm trying to get to wonderland but sometimes I wonder man
What will happen on the day when my life goes under man
Cause I rather have 25 years of memories
Then 25 years of people saying they remember me
But is it too much to ask for both
Cause my 25th is slow but it's slowly getting close
Cause biggie was 24, pac was 25
He died in 96, I was too little to cry
But I feel like once he died, I had been awaken
Cause my first memory I was almost 3 and I ain't faken
They say lifes too short but I think it's long enough
Cause we know our time is borrowed can't we get along enough
Cause time, I know we cannot pay for more
So I just pray for more and ask…