You will never see the light
You are destined to let them down
You will forever disappoint
You will be haunted
Until you die
Endless anxiety not helped by the voices
Forever tormented by these self-proclaimed prophesies
You can't escape what isn't there
Like a carnival of insanity trapped inside your mind
Once upon a time the demons remained silent
Once upon a time the world held wonder
Once upon a time this carnival held nothing but hope
Once upon an time
I was free
Infinite medication, the solution to everything
Causing more problems turning everything to sh**
No amount of pills can fill the void left behind
No amount of d** can fix my head
There is just no fixing it
There is just no f**ing fixing it
Looking at this sad existence through a window full of soot
Watching our brothers give their lives
For a country not worth saving
Painting this vision with colors now faded
I need to relearn how to f**ing live
I was free