[Verse 1]
Starry nights van goh flows, artistry at its finest I'm trying to shine the light at any f**ing spotlight
Girl i see you living
I'm recognizing everything
20/20 vision
I see things with the clarity, it's clear to me that I'll probably die alone, burdens on my shoulders but that sh** feels like a stone
Road trip dazing
I'm always on the road
The time of day I give to her is too damn slow
Told her I'm always focused on bettering my flow
She asked me when Im gonna come home
I showed her a calendar
It had my schedule on it
In order for me to go home now I'd have to be super sonic
She knew I was busy and she said she was committed
Now she regrets the decision and said that'd shed give in
She said I've had enough
I told her don't go
She said I've had a boy for months and you'd never f**ing know
She hung up fast after that low blow, reputation carving she made herself a hoe, too bad I couldn't dwell on it too long I had a show
Then after I performed I had to hit the road, my mind was spinning fast like outta control
Then I woke up sweating breathing fast in a panic
Thinking that sh** was real man that sh** was tragic
Reached over to my counter so I could drink my gla** of water
Thinking about the sh** that I had heard from my father
Telling me things discouraging me
That's the kind of sh** that influenced my dreams
I layed back down and I felt through it all
Now I understood what it is that I saw
My emotions went through all it is was raw
Rap is just my calling and I answered the call
But with that lifestyle comes the partying
Drinking hard everynight
Because you f**ing can
Getting wasted with your friends to prove that your the man
I don't think I'm ready for it
And it's approaching me
Coming at me fast that sh** hit super speed
Got some sh** to do I'll call that mr deeds
Legacy creating man I'm feeling like Apollo creed
Yeah but back to my dream
I went back to sleep and tried to forget it all
But the pain was too real, almost felt as if I hit a rock wall
Buying time for me, they tried to f**ing stall
Knowing that id have to go through it all
[Hook]
This is what I see with my own crystal ball
Every night I dream this the kinda sh** I see
Then when it really happens is when I stop to dream
Seeing things that I can't believe
[Verse 2]
Let's go back where we left off
She left my a** and I'm on tour we hit the road to take off
On the bus with a pencil in my hand
Writing music down then it started sounding bland
Ears started ringing
Heart started pounding
I had a heart attack and my life had barley started
Next thing I know
I'm on a f**ing cart and
Being rolled in to a dark f**ing closet
I see beams of light at the end of a tunnel
I'm starting to go towards it faster and faster
Then I drifted off and changed course to the side
The fear and disbelief that you could see in my eyes
I saw first hand where I was gonna end up
Hell at its finest had the fire blazing up
So then I stopped dreaming and woke up for good
Music is a curse but sometimes can do good