WHEN THE PAIN IS 2 DEEP INSIDE Let me sum up what I feel inside I relive bad memories almost every day from people calling me names to throughing what ever they could find at me one day I was walking around the complex of where I live ( PROVIDINCE TOWERS) and a group of kids where throughing rocks at me it was August 31st than I got a call that night my mom told me my great grandmouther died of cnacer and I was broken I saw here twice befor she left and both times I wanted to say goodbye yet each time I saw here it was as if I didint know how to talk like my voice was just gone next summer came I was at my grand mouthers house and my sister called me crying telling me one of our firends from middle school just died of cvancer and I havent seen or hered from here in 4 years didint even get to say good bye for the last time a year later 3 days befor 3 days befor my 19th b day and a year in 2 weeks ago since my great grandmouther died I find out one of my firends is in jail because he almost k**ed someone and cut someone else
now hes most most likey in jail for life so when you see me and ask me if im ok it dosnt matter if i have a home friends family because sometimes when the pain is 2 deep inside nouthing around you matters when the pain is 2 deep inside when the pain is 2 deep inside often ill start thinking about mudder or sucide but than I think about going to jail or not going home where I belong and so I just keep it all locked up inside because the pain is 2 deep to handal and I dont know what else to do so mabe next time you ask me if im ok you better think real hard if you really want to know what I feel inside because like I said earlier when the pain is 2 deep inside nouthing around you matters not even life ists self just keep that in mind case when the pain si 2 deep insdie when the pain is 2 deep insdie when the pain is 2 deep inside it dosent matter where you are or who your with it all comes back in a matter of seconds THIS SONG WAS WRITTEN BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 19 TYPED BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 19