[Intro: Kola Rai]
I can't trust you babe, I can't, I can't trust you babe
Want to forgive you, want to forgive you, want to forgive you..
(Repeat 2x)
[Verse 1: Naj]
To whom it may concern
Them funky feelings I was concealing
Had me acting out
Got me looking like a villain to you
Never asked "Yo son, what's fulfilling to you?"
I'm the corner-piece of the family
What's Sicilian to you?
What's a strong man without a strong wife?
At home dedicating her time to his long nights?
What's the chances of his son
Learning the wrongs, rights
Without being blinded by life and all of it's strong lights?
When he counting on you
But still waiting on you
Always had your back even when the whole fam was hating on you
I remember the fights with my mom
Plans we would set up
And I'd be sitting on the lawn
She be like "He ain't coming maybe he'll come in the morning"
Fighting her own cries
Because I'm tearing and yawning
Though I been living, I been living
It's kind of hard to be forgiving
[Hook: Kola Rai]
It's a shame I can't trust you
Can't believe you did me wrong
All i wanted to do was love you
Bet you'll miss me when I'm gone
See I can only give you so much but
It seems that my love ain't enough
But hey, you say that you just living, you just living
It's kind of hard to be forgiven
[Verse 2: Naj]
Problems after problems piling over the years
Got me out of options placing love over fear
Fear of disappointment in hoping people care
Reminiscing, about when I wasn't so open to share
The life, the times, trials and tribulations
Cause simulating a painting
Is never too stimulating, damn
How these old memories give me new pain?
Situations come and go no matter who changed
So I wrote these letters, to clear my soul of vendettas
Of losing what I grew to want
I'm still wishing I met her
God makes no mistakes
So it wasn't meant to be So I can't force a vision
I was never meant to see
Still coming to terms that
You weren't meant to grow?
How would you smile?
How would you look?
Wish I could know
But, when you've been living, you've been living
You just hope You'll be forgiven
[Hook: Kola Rai]
[Verse 3: Naj]
That fight to forgive, will f** up your soul
What good is holding the grudge?
Or a fight for control?
What good is love
If you can't fight for the sh**?
Like what good is a follower
If they ain't liking Your pic?
Sometimes, love felt like we was hiking a cliff
Lost control, hit rock bottom
Couldn't fight for the grip?
sh**, they predicted I'd slip
Fell into it
She don't need a Knick game
Just mad L's and mellow music
Wish my own Fam was as loyal as her
If I wasn't in my room
Leaving with sh** under their shirt
Take out on me your hard living?
My flows is God given
Never gave God wisdom
Avoiding the posh Christians
Granny told me my generation
Lost to the system
Could have got lost in the prison
Instead got lost in the rhythm
But, when you been living, You been living
You already know, true love is endless forgiveness
[Hook: Kola Rai]