[Verse 1]
I've been in love with you for a little bit admiring you from a far
Because I don't want you to ever know it
I already got the perfect way to show it but
All I care about is how I do not wanna blow it
Just coasting at a rapid pace and often I don't even ewanna stop and take a moment
To admire the beauty of everything that isn't you
Cause if I had you then Id probably give it to the notion
I could fall in love with you again everyday in every way
And I guess I'm saying that I don't gotta be hoping
I don't gotta operate on you to get you open
If you wanted tears I would cry you an ocean
When you walk into the room you do it in slow motion
[?] throwing petal roses
I wanna be there for you to blossom like a lotus
Even if it's not me that's suppose to I could probably force it
This infatuation is something I cannot take
And even if I could then I would wanna die before you know it
Most of the time though
I stay alone with me and myself in the surface energy I grow with
Due to my negativity I will never be surprised if I don't ever find anybody to get old with
I got depression that the thought of you helps me cope with
But I get more obsessive as my heart stays broken
[Hook]
I know I could be a man
But you still don't know who I am
I want you and I wanna possess you
But I don't know how I can
I will take you out to sea
I will take you by the hand
I will let go of you and watch you sink as deep as you can