I just hung up the phone and I'm still smiling ear to ear and it's ten
minutes for my spells of laughing fits to disappear. My friends here
all smile at me and say now who was that on the phone, and I say,
that's just my best friend from home. And I can't remember now what
made me so upset before, but you eased my mind, said Jesus Moll that's
what it's all for. Don't ever feel guilty for not walking away,
you're the only one who knows how you feel, you'll find your own way.
I remember on the bathroom floor, we were maybe sixteen, you said,
don't go, I don't want you to leave. We were drunk, we were sobbing
we were out of our minds, but how fondly I remember it all from time
to time.
I'm afraid that you don't know cause I forget to call and I'm afraid
you don't know cause I forget to write just to say I'm alive just to
say I'm still alive.
In the past it's been you on the
phone, saying I don't know where to go, I can't go home, you said you
always make it so much better with what you say, I wish I could do the
same thing for you if you'd let me someday. Now it's me on the phone
in the car in the rain, and I say, help me I think I'm going insane.
I feel all tied down by these invisible weights. You see it's always
you I come back to with my pain.
And I'm afraid that you don't know cause I forget to call and I'm
afraid you don't know 'cause I forget to call and I'm afraid you don't
know cause I forget to write just to say I'm alive, just to say I'm
still alive.
I was gonna wait to write this song 'till like one of us got married,
but at this rate you'll be living in my attic 'till were forty -- or
it could be the other way around. But Aunt Julie, Aunt Julie, why's
she so crazy, does she really have to live up in our attic? So I
stand back now wondering how and why this friendship has emerged, and
I don't think I that could ever really find the right words to express
how lucky I feel, oh how very, very lucky I feel.
And I'm afraid... you don't know.