Thinking out loud
My conscience is speaking
It calls to me, in a distant voice
I’m finally listening
It’s finally time to see
The writing on the wall
I can’t define the guilt
You know I feel it all
I’m forced to see now
What I couldn’t feel then
The connection that I can’t ever mend
Shadows they move towards the light
I feel acceptance in my grasp
The realization that I can’t deny or fight
That the pain had always masked
Facing my true reflection
In a mirror that holds the key
It’s time to give up on blaming you
And stare into my own two eyes
And blame me
I tried so hard to push the blame
Into your lap
I played the card
The ace that set up the final trap
The bitterness that suffocates me
I feel it burning inside
Facing my true reflection…
Holding on
Holding you
Holding this when everything
Turned out wrong
Holding back
Holding me
From ever being free