[Verse 1]
Thinking of the way I felt, walking out of your apartment
Could not have been that far from hell, not far from where I started
No rush and no relief, no picture of the future
I went to running cla**, thought "what the f** did I do to her?"
Oh my god I'm turning sober, all the d** I thought I loved
Reminding me of last October, and the break that almost was
I held myself accountable for all of my misgivings
This mountain insurmountable, no hope found by Thanksgiving
[Chorus]
How did you know when I left there, I would end up worse
How did you know when I ran scared, I'd walk to my hearse
How did it get this way for me, it's just so surprising
The weight isn't off of me, time for some exercising
[Verse 2]
I tried to make it up, everything that I was feeling
Scary head and scary eyes, can't word what I am dealing
With everything I put you through, and the words that I have written
You gotta be a god damn fool, to tell me I make you smitten
[Chorus]
How did you know when I left there, I would end up worse
How did you know when I ran scared, I'd walk to my hearse
How did it get this way for me, it's just so surprising
The weight isn't off of me, time for some exercising