I'm back at the start, I'm writing this text
Not about my future, I am struggling with the past
Bad things happened, but I have no regrets
Seems like I need to pa** everything
That was happening
That was happening
I f**ed so many things up
Hurt so many people
They saw the real me
This is why they hate me
This is why they hate me
I keep asking myself
Why I did this to
The people that
That I loved most of all?
Was it a call for attention?
I was another soul lost
In the f**ing abyss
And I was another soul lost
In the f**ing abyss
I was never satisfied with what people said from their hearts
Or what they did for me, cause some things are better left (untold)
I was seeking for perfection
And I'm not perfect at all
Imperfection was my perfection
I know it in my heart
It's so hard to tell
The truth about myself
But I'm my only hope, the only one
Who can help to survive
I became
Everything I never want
That I never want to be
Hatred against myself
To everyone
To everyone around
Still seeking for perfection
And still not perfect at all
Imperfection was my perfection
I know it in my heart
This is my reflection
I can't handle the pictures
Of the person that I am now
Just a nobody in the crowd
This is my reflection
I can't handle the pictures
Of the person that I am now
Just a nobody in the crowd
This is my reflection
I can't handle the pictures
Of the person that I am now
Just a nobody in the crowd
I hope that I'm changing now