when i talk to a man i see him as a person
& listen to his comments
& form ideas of him as a person
when i talk to a woman i see her as a person
& listen to her comments while looking at her face, her clothes,
whiteher body
& form ideas of myself as a person in comparison to her, putting
whitemy energy into finding how i am lesser than her
& when i let the relationship stop there is when i stop growing
whitebecause i have been taught we are to compete & hate each
whiteother
& i have been falsely convinced that our relationships solely
whitecontain drama & shopping