I've been scarred in my mind for real
Everytime i try to look away, i remember the k**ed
Everytime i look away, i start feeling the chills
Lying to myself, what i saw wasn't real
I don't want to rap about this topic anymore
Many of you think i'm using this because i'm bored
Many of you think i'm using them just to appeal
I'm just asking you, if i don't speak for them, who will?
Time is such a scary thing, i've become so calloused
Spent a night with them, i realize my home's a palace
Spent a day with them, i realized i have it good
Even though i know this, i don't live the way i should
I was bitten by a bug, living in that area...
Later on i found out i'm carrying malaria
No i didn't curse Him, but thanked Him for my role
Cuz now i got their suffering just tatted on my soul
Till the day i die, i will understand their pain
Depending on my God, like a farmer is with rain
Relying on my Lord, my one and only team...
The hardest thing to give up: is my one and only dream
Living in a world where evil is now good
Things i couldn't do, i realize that i now could
At times i find myself just screaming at His face
If i'm not allowed, why tease me with this taste
And every single time i just feel like letting go
I remember all the people who believe me at my shows
Think about the power in the decisions i choose
Power to confuse or to introduce them You
I've been scarred in my mind for real
Everytime i try to look away, i remember the k**ed
Everytime i look away, i start feeling the chills
Lying to myself, what i saw wasn't real
I don't want to rap about this topic anymore
Many of you think i'm using this because i'm bored
Many of you think i'm using them just to appeal
I'm just asking you, if i don't speak for them, who will?
Under stand i never asked for this position
Sword is getting heavy and it seems like no one listens
Cuts my own flesh but you see i give it more
My soul is in a state of a moral civil war
And as i keep on growing so does the army of hate
Who wait for every slip and reason to call me fake
To the panel of judges: i admit i can't handle you
I just hope with every fall, i just become more tangible
I'm another boy, another son, another man
I failed yesterday and will fail today again
I repeat this, to all of those you don't get it
If i'm not LYRICKS then why give me the credit
I don't want your props or your daps for my flows
I just hope my raps will just act as sign posts
I know i'm not as flashy or as attractive
But at the end of the day, it's what my tracks DID
Did i show you life or rap about d**h
Just to be in light did i sacrifice breath
For the riches of the world, did i compromise love
For the beauty of her face, what did i give up
Of course there are times i just wish that i was free
Just to live in today's definition of free
Want to be rebellious, reppin up the fist
Life would be easy so believing you don't exist
I've been scarred in my mind for real
Everytime i try to look away, i remember You're real
Everytime i look away, i start feeling the chills
Lying to myself, what i feel isn't real
I don't want to rap about You anymore
Many of them think i'm using You because i'm bored
Many of them think i'm using You just to appeal
I'm just asking if you, if i don't remind them, who will?