I remember awaking, but being half awake
Like… basically, feeling like I was the only person in the world
There are people around that like know where to get to that, know a way to like talk to that.
And feel like cause… I don't fully… conscious. I wasn't fully like… able to experience the world at all. And like… I don't know
It didn't feel like it was ever going to change. Not sure what it was like. Like… It didn't feel like… my life was ever going to be the same
Sort of like… you know… just a bunch of chaos up there, like above me and like around me but I couldn't like. I had no access to. And that's probably what made it feel more like hell