Thinking of things, that I could have done All of the thoughts that prey on my mind Before my eyes had barely the time, to adjust to light Like deadfire bound by night that shines on my skin A faded picture eroded by our time A lost hope thinking of him It's sad to know that selfishness, hides behind a faith It scares me to think that really I am all alone It hurts to know that these moments really mean nothing It's a lie to say I'm not afraid anymore So this reminiscence, love shattered pride What once was innocence turned cold before it died The ghost inside of me would turn you white I'm going f*cking nowhere if I see your face tonight
As I stumbled into the shadows without the means of sleep Alone in this room is all I'll ever need The sun keeps setting on me nearly everyday And my arms aren't strong enough to pull the sun up with each new day I used think, if I could change, for the better, forever, but I'll never change I used think, that I could change, for the better, forever, but I'll never change So, here's to sleeping through sunlit hours, and living the darkest nights Where no one can see my face, or the smile that I force And to think, that I could change, you'll remember, I'll never change