Suddenly I was told to breathe
So wide eyed gasping I took my first breath
Rising up from nothing aiming to be fabulous non the less
This isn't just an uneducated guess
I'm a weird mother f**er
Can't you tell i'm not like the rest?
Whispers in these ears keep telling me i'm blessed
Keep this sh** up and you'll never be stressed
Knew that was a lie but I said f** it, what's next?
Gotta cope with this deep breath until I float
This sense always brings me to this point of hope
My father asked me if I was a f*ggot, nope
I like licking p**y and s**ing titties though
Huff a sugary taste laced with vicodin and tall boys
Join if you want, like always it's your choice
I'm a s**er for a good connection
I've got good detection, possibly scared of my own reflection
Ibuprofen, lack of serotonin, all playing roles in the life I'm blowing
You see my colors showing?
Breathe in, breathe out
I think this time I loaned is finally f**ing running out
Breathe in, breathe out
My lungs are begging for a hit and I can't let em down
Drifting slowly losing sense of time
A dance with d**h is f**ing nothing when you've felt this high
A drive down 75, never felt so alive
Huffing nitrous till our brains are f**ing paralyzed
Gimme a double I'm asking for trouble
My lips are turning blue and I'm starring through a tunnel and subtly I leave this room in which I grew into a cold sorry son of a b**h, it was a mix of lack of concentration, motivation, I've come to the realization I will never change
It's always one more, one more
Outta metaphors to explain the shame I felt when I was dirt poor
If only when I came to I could put these thoughts to words
I'd probably terrify you
I'd sound so absurd
An animal in a cage I'm going straight berserk
I'd bang head on the bars but it only leads to a soul that hurts
So I sit back and watch life pa** me by
Stuck with this feeling that my life is just a lie
Wide eyed I realize with that last breath I've never felt so alive
But I'm dead inside
Breathe in, breathe out
I think this time I loaned is finally f**ing running out
Breathe in, breathe out
My lungs are begging for a hit and I can't let em down
Drifting slowly losing sense of time
A dance with d**h is f**ing nothing when you've felt this high
A drive down 75, never felt so alive
Huffing nitrous till our brains are f**ing paralyzed